I can't focus on what you're saying

I can’t focus on what you’re saying. I have too many thoughts in my head but I really want to hear what you’re talking about. 

I think I’ve suffered from this affliction for a long time, but just now, in the few minutes it has taken me to drive to Screwfix and back, I think I’ve made a realisation.  My wife must despair at me. It’s the classic ‘man’ thing of not paying attention but I don’t think it’s wholly my fault. 

The thing is, I’m a bit of a dreamer. 

I like to formulate one hair brained scheme after another, I love getting started on something. I’m not usually so bothered about carrying on after its started. I’m a bit like Scrappy Doo when it starts - all “Let me at ‘em, Let me at ‘em” - but then my focus turns to the next stupid idea. I listened to an audio book not so long back - I think it was ‘Be More Pirate’ by Sam Coniff Allende - in which he talks about starters and finishers. He identifies himself as a starter and I’m coming to the realisation that I am too.  Music is different though. This has been my constant, my forever love and the dream of all dreams. 

Everything in my life comes back to music and it is music (and audiobooks) that has hit me with todays revelation. I was listening to Duff McKagen’s (Guns n Roses Bassist). I love hearing the backgrounds of rock and sports stars but I just couldn’t focus on him. 

My head was spinning with, well, my need to write this. I’m supposed to be on a schedule with these things and I’ve fallen behind. I’m blaming having to home school the kids but its probably because I’ve been playing too much golf. Even though I was interested in his story, I couldn’t focus. I just had to put some music on, something familiar and easy and then the idea for this very blog has just surfaced naturally. Even as I write this I’ve stuck on some Blind Melon and just cracked on. 

I now know I need to set myself in the right environment for my current mindset or task, I’d like to apologise to Mrs. P for all the times I haven’t listened and will try to be more aware in future. 

I know I’m not the only one and I’d love to know what you guys are listening to to help yourselves. 

Take it easy.

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